Friday, August 06, 2004
Well it's been a little bit since I updated - I have been busy and experiencing a little turmoil in my life - nothing new of course as my life just CAN"T be quiet and simple can it??? But anyway... The boys are doing well - Dilen will be going to private Kindi next month and I will play by ear whether he goes to 1st grade or repeats kindi next year... I am not going to make any decisions on that til the end of the school year but as he's more then ready now I am going to send him to Kindi now.... Deven is doing well and thriving although he is totally bushed by the end of the week...
The end of July/beginning of August is a very bittersweet time for me... Today is my birthday - I am 21 w/14 yrs of experience... Thank you for the well wishes! *grin* It is also the 2nd anniversary of my due date - today my youngest would have been one... There is still an ache and void in my heart that while is duller today then last year still affects me deeply... I have a hard time being cheerful and upbeat w/expecting friends - not to say I don't wish them all the joy and happiness they deserve I just have trouble expressing it w/o a tinge of grief overcoming me... Also presently 2 dear ladies I know are experiencing similar pain and loss and for them I wish to do nothing short of grabbing them and hugging them tight so that we might release some of the pain together (if either of you is reading this {{HUGS}} let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do for you)....
Relationshipwise I am just not in a stable place but I am not bothered by that, when the time is right and my heart is ready it will happen - and yet..... ANYWHO... I must go finish up my work as I am leaving early to take the boys to Hurricane Harbor and then continue on w/the motto of the day (which started yesterday) "Drink Heavily" - afterall it IS my birthday!!! Sooo cocktails anyone??? Til next time...
The end of July/beginning of August is a very bittersweet time for me... Today is my birthday - I am 21 w/14 yrs of experience... Thank you for the well wishes! *grin* It is also the 2nd anniversary of my due date - today my youngest would have been one... There is still an ache and void in my heart that while is duller today then last year still affects me deeply... I have a hard time being cheerful and upbeat w/expecting friends - not to say I don't wish them all the joy and happiness they deserve I just have trouble expressing it w/o a tinge of grief overcoming me... Also presently 2 dear ladies I know are experiencing similar pain and loss and for them I wish to do nothing short of grabbing them and hugging them tight so that we might release some of the pain together (if either of you is reading this {{HUGS}} let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do for you)....
Relationshipwise I am just not in a stable place but I am not bothered by that, when the time is right and my heart is ready it will happen - and yet..... ANYWHO... I must go finish up my work as I am leaving early to take the boys to Hurricane Harbor and then continue on w/the motto of the day (which started yesterday) "Drink Heavily" - afterall it IS my birthday!!! Sooo cocktails anyone??? Til next time...
